I still miss you.

Tyrone and Samara bought their house outside Fredricton.

I have now a place in Florida, a puppy named Sullivan, and friends of course.

I know they are never to replace you. You and I knew so much,

Were accused of more and yet never committed a crime!

( You might have:) if so? Glad you never said!!)

I think of E (your Mother) and her new car (71-72?) and your 9 year old body leaping from the loft on to the bonnet?

I think on the way you kept Your sister J quiet after nearly taking her eye out with a dart! How intricately you explained how badly you felt!!

Of your cousins with the vacant house, the large fan, the galvanized nails....thrown:)

You asked me once to be your memory! Might have asked another..( laughs)!!!

I think you told me Dutchess was still around in most those days....

They took all I had of you, as you know....( except the car! ) Those “supers” S&R did some super robbing of other things I never mentioned. Her being on I knew wasn’t the issue.....my fault was not remembering people have to steal for what she needed. We knew, I know. I didn’t think I’d be ill so long....regret is terrible.

I’m sorry I thought I could trust them with you while I was away.

Your family believed them as having been truthful and helpful.They ended up the ‘Good People’ and I guess that is what the living need to believe. It is easy ‘black and white’ for the average. Remember? We said we wouldn’t want it otherwise!:)

I am ever so proud of you. How you stood against a pain we went so far to conquer....for no

answer or consolation.Without promise you went.

LOOK!

Almost five years later! I’ve yet to find a spark of what was in the heart of you!!

You were as good at hatred and lies as you were at love truth.....I can still find no fault in that...

even when that is all others can/ could see.

I perceived it a brilliance of it’s own sort.

I am only sorry for how you had to hone your

edge.

I will never stop loving you.

54 days until your birthday.....05/14/1962!!!

I won’t forget. I just won’t write..

After five years.? Was that what we said??

Until,

Me xo